2015,
It's been a long time since I've last sat down and wrote on this blog. Actually, it's been four months… and a lot has happened since then. Let me begin by saying that Summer 2015 was the most exhilarating and fun summer I've had my entire life. My days were filled with activities and spontaneity. But it was also the season I felt most raw, humbled, and real. Looking back, I was at such an all-time high during that season. Now, I'm coming back down.
Around the time I published my last blog post, I started a new job. A job where I met different people and learned new skills I never considered doing. But last week… I said my last good bye and drove away from the building one last time. To be honest, I had a love-hate relationship with that job. It was a place where I came to work but never really enjoyed doing the things I did. I would work before attending my classes from 6pm-10pm and by the time I went to class, I was mentally exhausted. I didn't have it in me to pay attention or retain any of the things I was learning.
This quarter mentally and physically challenged me.
I would hear myself constantly complain about how tired I was, I would go to bed as soon as I got home, and I couldn't bring myself to interact with my friends. I went from being Positive Polly to a Negative Nancy. Soon enough, I started to realize the small changes in me that I wasn't proud of. When my boss let me go, I was sad to be saying good bye to my coworkers. But after a few hugs and tears, I drove away feeling okay. Now on the other hand, I'm so happy, grounded, and content.
I spent last weekend, I spent time with the people I love and who made me happiest being surrounded with their presence. On Thursday, my mom's best friend gave me free tickets to Justin Bieber's Purpose release party. Although I wouldn't call myself a "Belieber," I knew someone who's currently obsessed with his song, Sorry. So my friend, Heidi, and I went to his release party on Friday afternoon.
Later on that night, some of my closest friends and I decided to hang out. Since we're all busy in school, I haven't seen my friends since our summer adventures. It was relaxing to be able to talk to them, catch up, and hang out. Since I wasn't feeling so good, it was nice to hear their thoughts on some things and have a good laugh together.
Saturday, I decided to stay at home. I spent the day doing the things I like- reading, listening to music, writing, and sleeping.
Sunday, I spent the afternoon visiting The Broad museum with my cousins and brothers. The museum is incredible. I appreciate all the artwork, lighting, and aesthetic of the place. I do have to mention that my favorite was The Visitors by Ragnar Kjartansson. When I entered the walkway, I immediately heard the music and wanted to find out where it came from. Once I entered the room, I couldn't leave. I was enticed by the different videos on each screen. I stayed to watch the whole thing. I loved it.
Naturally, I'm attracted to more black and white/ low in saturation artwork. But I also appreciated the various artists and artwork that were displayed.
Last weekend, I spent a lot of time distracting myself from all the chaos that has occurred in my life. I do intend to get away soon and think about everything. But for now, music and writing are my therapy.
Coming Down
Hey everyone,It's been a long time since I've last sat down and wrote on this blog. Actually, it's been four months… and a lot has happened since then. Let me begin by saying that Summer 2015 was the most exhilarating and fun summer I've had my entire life. My days were filled with activities and spontaneity. But it was also the season I felt most raw, humbled, and real. Looking back, I was at such an all-time high during that season. Now, I'm coming back down.
Around the time I published my last blog post, I started a new job. A job where I met different people and learned new skills I never considered doing. But last week… I said my last good bye and drove away from the building one last time. To be honest, I had a love-hate relationship with that job. It was a place where I came to work but never really enjoyed doing the things I did. I would work before attending my classes from 6pm-10pm and by the time I went to class, I was mentally exhausted. I didn't have it in me to pay attention or retain any of the things I was learning.
This quarter mentally and physically challenged me.
I would hear myself constantly complain about how tired I was, I would go to bed as soon as I got home, and I couldn't bring myself to interact with my friends. I went from being Positive Polly to a Negative Nancy. Soon enough, I started to realize the small changes in me that I wasn't proud of. When my boss let me go, I was sad to be saying good bye to my coworkers. But after a few hugs and tears, I drove away feeling okay. Now on the other hand, I'm so happy, grounded, and content.
I spent last weekend, I spent time with the people I love and who made me happiest being surrounded with their presence. On Thursday, my mom's best friend gave me free tickets to Justin Bieber's Purpose release party. Although I wouldn't call myself a "Belieber," I knew someone who's currently obsessed with his song, Sorry. So my friend, Heidi, and I went to his release party on Friday afternoon.
Later on that night, some of my closest friends and I decided to hang out. Since we're all busy in school, I haven't seen my friends since our summer adventures. It was relaxing to be able to talk to them, catch up, and hang out. Since I wasn't feeling so good, it was nice to hear their thoughts on some things and have a good laugh together.
Saturday, I decided to stay at home. I spent the day doing the things I like- reading, listening to music, writing, and sleeping.
Sunday, I spent the afternoon visiting The Broad museum with my cousins and brothers. The museum is incredible. I appreciate all the artwork, lighting, and aesthetic of the place. I do have to mention that my favorite was The Visitors by Ragnar Kjartansson. When I entered the walkway, I immediately heard the music and wanted to find out where it came from. Once I entered the room, I couldn't leave. I was enticed by the different videos on each screen. I stayed to watch the whole thing. I loved it.
Naturally, I'm attracted to more black and white/ low in saturation artwork. But I also appreciated the various artists and artwork that were displayed.
Last weekend, I spent a lot of time distracting myself from all the chaos that has occurred in my life. I do intend to get away soon and think about everything. But for now, music and writing are my therapy.
"Not everything is supposed to become something beautiful and long-lasting. Sometimes people come into your life to show you what is right and what is wrong, to show you who you can be, to teach you to love yourself, to make you feel better for a little while, or to just be someone to walk with at night and spill your life to. Not everyone is going to stay forever, and we still have to keep on going and thank them for what they’ve given us." - Emery Allen
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