2015,

Blink of an Eye

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Hi hi everyone!

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S THE LAST DAY OF 2015!

These last few weeks have been going by so fast. I hope you've all had an amazing holiday season, and if you don't celebrate the holidays, then I hope you're having an incredible winter season. Last night, I had somewhat of a realization that the year has come to an end we're officially going to start a new year, and my heart was filled with so much joy with what's happened.

Today, I want to take the time to look back and reflect on 2015. This year has been full of adventure, love, and blessings for me.  I'm so incredibly thankful and blessed for all that occurred this year and everyone in my life. I welcomed 2015 with nothing but high hopes for good things to happen this year, and life happened to me in a blink of an eye.

Here's 15 things that occurred throughout the year that I'm grateful for:
15.     Started my fourth year of college with my university friends

14.     Going to Disneyland with my friends 

13.     Having a day trip to San Diego for Spring Break 2015

12.     FAMILY REUNION 2015

11.    Actually putting together Friendsgiving and Friendsmas… who knew my friends would come to like dinner parties?

10.    Resigned from my previous job and got another job

9.       Family members moving to SoCal.

8.       Cheers to first times, cute guys, new crushes, and funny memories with the best of friends
7.       My baby girl and baby cousin turned 18
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6.     Getting inducted to LPE with my COMM friends. (:
5.     Summer 2015
 
4.     Being able to be there for my godson’s day of birth, then holding him.
3.     Applying for graduation. Officially taking part of being in Class of 2016.

2.     Being asked to be the godmother of Peter then welcoming him into the world

1.     Celebrating my 21st with my best friends in Vegas and celebrating my friends' 21st birthdays

2015 was a year all about letting go. I think it's safe to say that I've always been very careful with how I present myself to people and this year, I let myself open up to life. I let myself open up to all different kinds of people and let new people in. I let a lot of my worries go. I let a lot of my thoughts go. And I let me… be me. Throughout the process of finding myself, I found my truest friends and the people that made me happiest. 


Here’s what 15 things I’ve learned this year:

1.     Learn to let things go. Nothing can amount to the freedom of not being worried. You can't redo yesterday and you can't control tomorrow. 

2.     Appreciate what you have. There are people who have less. There are people who have more. You have what you have. Be grateful.

3.     Learn your outlet. Be it to sing, listen to music, drive, read a book, cook/bake, dance, write… turn to them in your times of struggle. 

4.     "Ohana means family and family means nobody gets left behind." There are two types of family- family we don't get to choose and the family we choose for ourselves. Family is who you consider family. 

5.     Be selective with the people you surround yourself. Bad energy can reflect onto you and nobody wants to be surrounded with negative vibes.

6.     John Mayer said, "Say what you need to say." Figure out what you want to say then say it. But Frank Outlaw also said, "Watch your words." So be careful with what you say.

7.     Listen to your dad when it comes to finances. He knows what he's talking about.
8.     Listen to your mom when it comes to her advice on love and relationships. She knows what she's talking about. 
9.     Spend time with your grandparents. We often forget that, as we grow older, so do they. They won't be around forever. 

10.  Befriend your siblings. Just because they're your brother or sister doesn't mean you'll have a relationship with them. Work on that relationship.

11.  Accept the fact that you can't control everything. Everything happens for a reason. You are where you're meant to be.
12.  Learn your reactions. Don't do something stupid or say something dumb because you're mad in the moment. Take a step back and give yourself time to figure out the best way to handle the situation. You can't take back your words and actions say a lot about a person.

13.  Be comfortable with being by yourself. Learn how to be okay with having no one around for company but your own. 

14.  Accept whichever season you are in your life right now. Whether that's being a student, working two jobs, becoming a mom, or starting something new… know that whatever you're going through, you are not alone. There's someone out there going through something just as difficult, straining, and scary. Stay strong. And in the words of my mother, "Everything will come to pass." 

15.  Take care of yourself. You're all you've got in the end.

I'm so thankful for everything that happened in 2015 and for everyone in my life that made 2015 a year full of some of my favorite memories. Thank you everyone. I wish you all a Happy New Year. 

"Isn't it crazy how we can look back a year ago and realize how much everything has changed? The amount of people that have left your life, entered, and stayed. The memories you won't forget and the moments you wish you did. Everything. It is crazy how all that happened in just one year."

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2015,

To you, Thank you

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Happy Thanksgiving!

Looking back, I've realized so much has happened throughout this year that has allowed me to have grown in ways I didn't think would happen. I have so much to be thankful for and today's post is an appreciation shoutout to those who's helped me along the way.


To my mom and dad, 
The two of you are able to fill my life with a combination of difficulty and challenges, yet with so much love and care. Your love for each other inspires me. Your questions on how I see life makes me think twice on the decisions I make... But you also remind me how much you support me and love me. Your generosity and care for everyone humbles me. You make me so proud to call you my mother and father. Thank you for being my parents.



To my Brahhhh and Brodaa,
Thank you for being the brothers that you are. Even when we don't see each other for long period of times, we make use of the time we have together. We're all growing up and our lives don't intertwine like they used to, but that's okay… because you two make me happy in the smallest ways possible. You've taught me not only how to be your sister but also friend. I love you both.



To my extended family, 
Words can't express how much I love you all. Even when I don't see all of you, we make the moments we have each other worth remembering. This year has brought us so close and I can't wait to see you all next year. Our family is big… and constantly gets bigger, but our relationships remain in tact. Thank you for all your love, even miles away. 



























  To my university friends, 
Thank you. Thank you for making my last two years of college the best I've ever had. Shoutout to the C$ULA K!DS squad, LPE members, and my fellow COMM mates. Thank you for giving me the memories I love remembering because I love the people I spent it with. Thank you for your guidance when I'm in doubt. For encouraging me when I feel like I'm not good enough, and for helping me practice the skills I have. For helping me grow mentally because all of you challenge me on the way I think. Thank you for making college more fun, even when we're all stressed out and over with being in college. 










To all my friends,
Thank you for making 2015 amazing thus far. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for having my back when I feel like I'm alone. Thank you for making me laugh (because it's my favorite thing to do). To those who I grew up with, have grown up with, or have recently met, all your friendships mean a lot to me. Thank you.































To my best friend, Nancy,
Eight years of friendship ain't got nothing on us. We've grown up (in all aspects) and I'm so thankful to have the memories we have (that once we do remember and the once we don't). Up and down, you've had my back. And to have spent this summer with you, just reminds me how lucky I am to have a best friend like you. Thank you for helping me when I'm down (literally), and for helping me get through my drunken nights. Ha! Even when we were apart you helped me through the things I needed and gave me advice through the times I was unsure. You've given me some of my best memories this year. Even when you're super busy, you still make time to talk to me. Thank you for all that you do. Thank you for taking care of me.


To Jeremi,
Thank you for your friendship. Sometimes I don't know how you can listen to me and the stupid nonsense I say, but you put up with it. You never fail to hear the random things I talk to you about, nor do you ever mind hanging out with me when I need someone to hang out with. You've helped me see a different perspectives on things and never fail to remind me how much you support me. Thank you for always making time to have brunch, dinner, and coffee with me. And for having hour long phone calls because sometimes I just need someone to talk to. Thank you so much for being you. 






























To my girl, Hydie,
 LOL. ^^ Sorry Heids, I had to! I've known you for four years, two of which we would see each other in brief moments, because we didn't have class together. But we made sure to keep in contact and had Starbucks dates so we can catch up on each other's lives. Thank you so much for your help throughout this year.... For your support and encouragements. For listening to me rant over and over again, even when we both knew I was being stupid about certain situations (especially about *ahem*).  You never failed to reassure me that everything will be okay. It was so fun to have class with you again. Although this was one of the toughest quarters to get through, you made it more bearable. #est2012 #SinceDay1





To my cousin, "Cousin,"
I love you. 
I love you. 
I love you. 
Thank you for constantly checking up on me and making sure I'm okay. Distance has nothing on our relationship because you make sure we're updated on each other's lives. Thank you for helping me get through tough days. Thank you for reassuring me that everything will be okay. Thank you so much for all of your support, encouragements, and advice. Even when I'm in the wrong, you remind me that it's part of growing process. You never fail to reassure me how much you love me. Nor do you fail to answer my calls/texts. You have a way of making my days better even when they're the absolute worst.  Thank you for putting a smile on my face when all I want to do is cry. Thank you for not giving a damn when I'm a mess which is 80% of the time... Because sometimes how do you even adult? We may not have chosen to be cousins, but we definitely chose to be friends. Thank you. I love you so much cousin. 


To those who read my blog,
Thank you. I may or may not know you read these but thank you for taking the time to even visit this page and read/ look at my posts. Thank you for letting me have a way of writing my thoughts out and sharing parts of my life online. Thank you. 



Thank you everyone for making this past year exceptionally incredible. 

Thank you,

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2015,

Coming Down

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Hey everyone,

It's been a long time since I've last sat down and wrote on this blog. Actually, it's been four months… and a lot has happened since then. Let me begin by saying that Summer 2015 was the most exhilarating and fun summer I've had my entire life. My days were filled with activities and spontaneity. But it was also the season I felt most raw, humbled, and real. Looking back, I was at such an all-time high during that season. Now, I'm coming back down.

Around the time I published my last blog post, I started a new job. A job where I met different people and learned new skills I never considered doing. But last week… I said my last good bye and drove away from the building one last time. To be honest, I had a love-hate relationship with that job. It was a place where I came to work but never really enjoyed doing the things I did. I would work before attending my classes from 6pm-10pm and by the time I went to class, I was mentally exhausted. I didn't have it in me to pay attention or retain any of the things I was learning.

This quarter mentally and physically challenged me.

I would hear myself constantly complain about how tired I was, I would go to bed as soon as I got home, and I couldn't bring myself to interact with my friends. I went from being Positive Polly to a Negative Nancy. Soon enough, I started to realize the small changes in me that I wasn't proud of. When my boss let me go, I was sad to be saying good bye to my coworkers. But after a few hugs and tears, I drove away feeling okay. Now on the other hand, I'm so happy, grounded, and content.

I spent last weekend, I spent time with the people I love and who made me happiest being surrounded with their presence. On Thursday, my mom's best friend gave me free tickets to Justin Bieber's Purpose release party. Although I wouldn't call myself a "Belieber," I knew someone who's currently obsessed with his song, Sorry. So my friend, Heidi, and I went to his release party on Friday afternoon.


Later on that night, some of my closest friends and I decided to hang out. Since we're all busy in school, I haven't seen my friends since our summer adventures. It was relaxing to be able to talk to them, catch up, and hang out. Since I wasn't feeling so good, it was nice to hear their thoughts on some things and have a good laugh together.





Saturday, I decided to stay at home. I spent the day doing the things I like- reading, listening to music, writing, and sleeping.

Sunday, I spent the afternoon visiting The Broad museum with my cousins and brothers. The museum is incredible. I appreciate all the artwork, lighting, and aesthetic of the place. I do have to mention that my favorite was The Visitors by Ragnar Kjartansson. When I entered the walkway, I immediately heard the music and wanted to find out where it came from. Once I entered the room, I couldn't leave. I was enticed by the different videos on each screen. I stayed to watch the whole thing. I loved it.

Naturally, I'm attracted to more black and white/ low in saturation artwork. But I also appreciated the various artists and artwork that were displayed.





Last weekend, I spent a lot of time distracting myself from all the chaos that has occurred in my life. I do intend to get away soon and think about everything. But for now, music and writing are my therapy.

"Not everything is supposed to become something beautiful and long-lasting. Sometimes people come into your life to show you what is right and what is wrong, to show you who you can be, to teach you to love yourself, to make you feel better for a little while, or to just be someone to walk with at night and spill your life to. Not everyone is going to stay forever, and we still have to keep on going and thank them for what they’ve given us." - Emery Allen



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